Provider.

The past few days has been evidence of God's provision in my personal life. With the stress of hearing back from colleges, scholarship applications, and the busyness of day to day life, I constantly find myself "needing" something. At times it's things I want: a scholarship or two to make going to college easier, a summer job to get me some spending money. Other times it's things I need: energy to make it through a rough day or grace to that one person that I continually find myself needing patience with.

The past two weeks these needs/wants have seemed to escalate. Applications are nearing deadlines, more and more people are deciding where they're going to college, and at times I seem to be left behind. Throughout this journey I've been playing tug and war with myself. One day I'll say to myself, "I trust in you God. All will work out!" Other days, I run to fear and have zero to little faith that things will end nicely or in my favor. In either/both of these situations, God never fails to provide me with exactly what I need.

Luke 12 contains a beautiful depiction of how God provides for us. “Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you—you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well."

I so often find myself becoming distracted with the things of this world. I focus on the material instead of the eternal. I think it's safe to say that we humans do this because we can see the material. In our heads, that's whats reliable. In reality, it's the exact opposite. It is only when we trust more in the eternal that we will be content in our material needs.

Throughout these past weeks, God has never failed to provide me with extra energy, creativity, or hope that He will work out all things for good (shout out to past post: "hope."). Although I constantly fail at trusting my fears to Him, I have faith that He will see me through and will give me the desires of my heart.

So you could view this post as a shout out to God. He's pretty amazing, and provision is just one of His crazy amount of qualities. So here's to Jesus, for always being there and always providing.

"And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 4