Starting Over.

I wrote the following entry about a week ago:

Having moved twice in the past 5 years, I've grown pretty accustomed to having to restart with friends, learn new surroundings, and how to cope with that sinking feeling of being the outsider. Occasionally I'll get questions like: "Was it hard moving cross country?" or "How difficult was it to move right before your senior year of high school?" The answers to these questions? Yes, it was hard. Sometimes I felt like it was the hardest thing I've ever gone through. However, all that to say, I wouldn't trade those experiences for the world. There were times I felt completely broken, but that only caused me to run to my Savior. 

It was only when I discovered people would fail me that I realized God never would. 

It was only when I realized my friends couldn't always be there that I understood God was always there to listen. 

So in these past few years, I've known the challenge of being uprooted. But I've also seen how God digs us up to transplant is closer to Him.
Looking back, I wouldn't change a thing. In fact, I've learned to expect nothing less than constant adventure from above. Instead of fearing it (as much), I've been learning to grasp the opportunities to stand out from the societal norm of staying comfortable. Looking ahead, I'm embarking on the adventure of college within the next few days. Another clean slate-another group of new people to meet. I'm immensely excited to start this adventure, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't the least bit nervous that I'll get the outsider sinking feeling again. But when I have these thoughts, I have to learn from my experience and trust in Jesus. After all, He has all my past, present, and future adventures figured out down to the minute details. 

Today:

Oh, how God provides. College is amazing. I mean, yeah there's the moments that are frustrating like when your phone isn't working or you get lost (like a million times), but the wonderful new memories make up for those less than pleasant moments. One thing that experiencing hard change and transition has taught me is to trust God unconditionally. He is constant and reliable. He holds the world in His hands, so He's got your worries too. Trust in Him, amidst the confusion. Amidst the starting over.